...

THAT'S IT!

    but...

Do you have
  Low self esteem?

             WAIT!

      There's a

better way!

When you look at yourself in the mirror...
What goes through your mind?
Let's get down to business and be really honest.

Do you see someone hawt staring back at you?
Or maybe you flinch and look away...
Do you think "Yeahhh decent enough."
Or do you think "Mann just a little bit... NYARGH!"

Here's something I came across on the net.
I think some of them are just hilarious.
The title was...

"Building blocks to feeling beautiful"

1 Tell yourself why you are beautiful.

Write it down and keep it in a place where you will see it from time to time.

2 Find a picture of yourself you really like and put it in a beautiful frame.

Keep it on display where you and others can see it.

3 Put your scale away. Far away.

Beauty is NOT measured in pounds.

4 Turn a critical eye to advertising and media images.

Acknowledge that models and movie stars don't represent reality.

5 Choose a day to not criticize yourself.

Then try it for a week. Then a month.

6 Respond to others thoughtfully when they criticize themselves.

Don't let their negative remarks go unchallenged.

7 Be around people who...

are comfortable with who they are and what they look like.

8 Make a list of 5 physical features of yourself...

that you like/appreciate and why. Then 5 personality traits,

5 things you are grateful for and 5 achievements that you're proud of.

9. Wear clothes that you like and feel good in.

Get rid of clothing that you have been waiting to fit into.

10. Treat yourself to something special

...like a new lipstick, earrings, stocking or a hair clip,

that accentuates one of your favorite features.

11. Be a good role model

...for children, young girls and friends. Realize that

constant talk about calorie-counting, diet, exercise,

gray hair and wrinkles is heard and learned.

12. Acknowledge your right to define beauty for yourself

It is your birthright!

It seems that all this world has to offer,
are suggestion of how you can bury your problems
and coat it up with pretty things that'll temporarily
make you feel better like lipstick, stockings and hairclips.

... like, totally.

I guess the answer is clear...
as it always has been. One answer, the only answer.

Sonia is high class.
She is one expensive human being,
bought at the cost of somebody's life.
Somebody super important.
He was the son of the CEO of The Universe.
And nobody, not even herself...
can tell her that she is anything less
than what she is REALLY worth.
Not only in the kingdom of heaven,
but even on this earth...
Call me a diva lol...

Cuz SO ARE YOU!

                                                                       Learning to love yourself.

                                                     Easy for some, harder for others.

I guess that's it buddy.

For those of you who may know, we go way back with our green Rav. Over the period of more than 10 years, it has been through the ups and downs, done wayyy too many k's and had it's good beatings from time to time. So many times, Janice and I would sit in the car, listening to the horrendous sounds that it'd make and joke, "One day we should crash it harddd, so it gets ridden off."

Be careful what you wish for.

I am now car-less and my goodness, I feel homeless. Due to a small-ish accident the other day, I was told to come by to the assessment centre and collect my things. Funny, I had nothing to say, because that very morning I prayed that God would throw things into my path, whatever they may be. I was determined to be a channel of blessing to ONE single person and He gave to me exactly what I'd asked for.

The accident was completely  my fault, and because of the shock, I wasn't in the right mind to ask if the other lady was okay. Thank God she was. But with the police asking me questions, the tow truck guys trying to get me to tow away my car, and my dad talking to me on the phone all at once... I didn't get a chance to speak to the lady at all.

So! I came home, pulled out the information card we exchanged, and called her up. I was cautious not to sound like a stalker, but I really wanted to speak to her myself. After a couple of attempts, she picked up and I apologised asking if she was okay. She was so nice, I'd like to say that I've made a friend. =) A car is a car. It can be fixed or replaced. Life is irreplaceable and I've learnt that once again...

In the meanwhile, I shall never see my green little buddy again. Rest in peace in the junk yard.

PS. I'm okay

Ecstatic.

After 5 days of worrying, I finally received a message from a strange number reading, "HI SONIA! your twin is alive and well, can you somehow give me a call on this number please? I'm shaking out of excitement..."

I spoke to Janice for almost an hour until my phone credit died. Apparently she can't access the internet because it's ridiculously slow. So she's using me to send out a message to you guys.

Janice says,

Hi guys!

Just a little message to say I'm alive and well but missing home like crazy. Don't worry I'm not having cockroaches for breakfast. I wish you could taste some of my banjook rice. Some nice lady forced me to pack ban chan and on the way here they exploded in my bag. -_-

I'm living on the 3rd story of an apartment all by myself. the weather is unbelievably humid. I'm angry that I packed long sleeves.

I have an ear and eye infection. could you please pray for fast healing.

I met some of the kids at church on sunday but I was disappointed when I asked if they remembered me, and they shook their heads. It broke my heart. But thankfully, the sun gyo sanim assured me that even until last week the children were asking "where is teacher jinny?" =)

The first song we sang at ISC (International Christian Fellowship - eng service) was Did you feel the mountains trembles. It made me cry.

Did you feel the mountains tremble?
Did you feel the oceans roar?
When the people rose to sing of,
Jesus Christ the Risen One.

And we can see that God You're moving,
A mighty river through the nations
Where young and old return to Jesus,
Fling wide you heavenly gates,
Prepare the way of the Risen Lord!

Lately I've been listening to Your Love Oh Lord and You Reign by 4Him. The hardest times are at night before I go to sleep because I feel lonely, although I know it's satan whispering into my ears. And I have nightmares everynight. Please pray for me that I'll be at peace.

I found that sydney is not only good for food, shopping and company but it's also great for dusting. Yes dusting. Dusting is difficult in Cambodia. I spent my whole afternoon trying to dust my floor and noticed half the dust particles have legs and are alive. I leave it for two minutes, and they've all crawled away. hahaha.

The other day I was rummaging through my wardrobe to find some bedsheets I could use. and to my surprise I did find some bedsheets that were the exact ones we use at home. I cried. hard. God has been doing everything he can to make me feel at home so you guys have nothing to worry about.

Apparently The UK hillsong church is coming to Cambodia in July and the Australia team in August! PRAISE GOD FOR HIS FAITHFULNESS not only to this nation but TO ME!!! =)

I start my orientation on thursday this week and my schedule should be confirmed then. God has been faithful every day in every way. One of the verses that have been really touching me is from Psalm 23. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me... Because how we live is important but how we die is just as much.

I miss you guys so much. And love you guys beyond words. Please continue to partner with me on this mission. Thank you. Byyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Love,
Janice

I'll leave you guys with her contact number. She doesn't have much credit, so she's relying on incoming calls! You can msg and call, as much as you want so GO HARD!

0011 855 929 730 49

For a moment I thought, hmm maybe I shouldn't publically announce her personal number. But thinking about it, I think she'll even appreciate prank calls at the moment. hehe. Shoot her a message now and make sure let her know who you are! =D

Thank you God for making my day.


                                               

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In disbelief.

How could all of this have been happening?

How could I have not known enough to care?

How could I have been so blind?

How can I do nothing?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVA4kgVGmX0&mode=related&search=

Faithful Lord, have mercy.